When did I begin to doubt my life?
How many times have you doubted yourself today…just today. Doubted what you chose to wear, to eat, to buy or to sell. Doubted what you said yesterday. Doubt leads us to question ourselves. And if we are exploring our motive or intention behind those decisions, (a more authentic viewpoint), we might just discover something wondrous about ourselves. Or not so wonderful. Questioning our decision stirs something deep within us to respond. And if we pay close attention to what happens throughout the day or even longer, those responses show up in the most clever, creative and stunning variations. Most often, not what you expected, but always perfect. So who is responding?
“Before you ask, I am standing at the threshold of your life” Emerging Soul Cards
When you ask your self, ‘Is this right? Am I making the best decision?’, you invoke something deep within to respond. Asking is like some kind of wake-up call for your higher guidance or divinity, that you need help or confirmation backing what you decided. How often do you pause to listen or check in with your body responses to your query. And if nothing happens, do you blow it all off? Do you continue to doubt the same decision and plod forward or reverse it altogether?
I often doubted my decision to build a 32 foot diameter wooden labyrinth over looking Canyon Lake in Texas. Many times during the building and even afterwards I doubted my creation. I later learned that at the same time, my friend, James Jereb PhD, who built several large stone labyrinth temples in New Mexico, had also experienced moments of doubt rising up. Like me, he shot questions into his personal universe, seeking confirmation and support. His story about his creation,Star Dreaming, will follow this one.
We met up the other day and discovered that at those pivotal moments when we questioned our inspiration, our motivation, or our guidance to create something so far out of the ordinary, something extraordinary happens. Here are those two stories about Doubt and what happens when we express it to a higher source.